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| Here are pictures of my ring!!! It's by far my favorite present he ever bought me ;)
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| Here are pictures of my ring!!! It's by far my favorite present he ever bought me ;)
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| He makes me Happy!
Wow.... It's amazing how certain circumstances completely change a person. I am not the same person I was two weeks ago, that's for sure. I am the happiest I've ever been in my entire life. I never thought that was possible two weeks ago. God just has a way of taking you out of a situation and showing you how He is protecting you from something, or someone. I am so thankful for Jesus taking me out of the place I've been in. I didn't see it, but now it's crystal clear and I am just praising God everyday for taking care of me the way He has. I am so excited to see what's next in my life! So much has happened, I KNOW God's hand is at work in my life! I am only 21, I have so much to look forward to! I am just now discovering the depths of who I really am.
It's in hard times that a person true character is really revealed. At the end of the day I can look back and be proud of how I have dealt with the trials. I know I have trusted God completely, even when I really didn't want to. I gave it up to Him, and clung to Him. I am confident in my heart of the woman I am desperately trying to become. I know where I stand. I know that I am where God wants me. Life is amazing ya'll, just soak it in. Soak in all of the emotion. Soak in all of the pain, because without it we wouldn't know happiness!
This song has blessed me today, it's my theme for the next two weeks, as I officially enter into the "real world" as a college grad! I am so excited to go home and remember my roots so I can grow braches and become the woman God originally planned me to be. I am so excited to see how God uses me this summer and whatever comes after that! I am so uncertain of where this journey is taking me, but I'm stoked to see how it plays out.
Roots Before Branches
So many things to do and say
But I can't seem to find the way
But I wanna know how
I know I'm meant for something else
first I gotta find myself
But I don't know how
Oh why do I reach for the stars
When I don't have wings that carry me that far?
I gotta have roots before branches
To know who I am
Before I know who I wanna be
And faith to take chances
To live like I see
A place in this world for me
Sometimes I don't wanna feel
And forget the pain is real
Put my head in the clouds
Start to run and then I fall
Thinking I can get it all
Without my feet on the ground
There's always a seed before there's a rose
The more that it rains the more I will grow
I gotta have roots before branches
To know who I am
Before I know who I wanna be
And faith to take chances
To live like I see
A place in this world for me
Whatever comes I know how to take it
Learn to be strong I won't have to fake it
Oh you're understanding
But when you come and do it best
There ain't nothing stopping east to west
And I'll still be standing, I'll be standing
If I have roots before branches
To know who I am
Before I know who I wanna be
And faith to take chances
To live like I see
A place in this world for me
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| So... this week has been intense. It's been amazing, and hard, and breathtaking, and heartbreaking, and refreshing, and unfair, and.... (You get the idea) it's been a roller coaster. I am so at Peace with where Jesus has me, even though at times I feel like everyday the enemy just has been relentless with throwing punches that leave me gasping for air. I have never had to trust God more in my entire life to rescue me from this place. I am working on praying boldly and believing with everything I am that God is going to deliver me from this situation. I have faith, but I HAVE to believe it too.
I feel like right now trusting, and believing, and loving God through all of this isn't the hard part. It's forcing yourself to not Love someone anymore. I really believe the Love I’m talking about, was God given in the first place, so to just suddenly let go is really hard. I don't want to love someone who doesn't love me, but it just isn't that easy. I've just found that I have to give the Love I was giving to another person, to Jesus. It's all I can do right now. Until Jesus takes that Love completely away for that person, it's going to be a long road to understanding the full picture.
Jesus thank you for not making me bitter. Thank you for giving me kindness and forgiveness in my heart for those who come against me. Thank you for guarding my heart when I hear names being used against me that are so unjustified. You know my heart, you know where my intentions are, and you know exactly what's written on my heart because you put it there. Thank you a chance to start new with You. Thank you for keeping me safe.
Safe
How did you know
That I'm all alone today
Oh I feel so scared
And I want to go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming
I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show you every mistake
Your love has mended my blisters
And my bruising shame
Now I, I'm not ashamed.
Here with you
I am safe
Drowning the tears
Won't make it go away
It's robbing my soul
I'm taking this mask off my face
To discover love
And uncover all
It means to live and breathe
You've uncovered and I've discovered
I am not afraid
But when we're hiding we're only fighting
To be sane
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| I have had an abundance of wisdom placed on my heart this week. God is so good! I am so thankful for the people He has strategically placed in my life this week. I have had so many people lifting me up in prayer from every corner of the country, and even around the Globe. Walking though this new chapter in life has been the hardest yet, but I have grown SO much in the past week.
I have had several people talk to me this week about praying boldly. Praying with faith is not enough, we have to BELIEVE that what we are praying for will happen. We also have to accept that what does happen, may not be exactly that we prayed for but it was all in God's plan. I also had my pastor tell me that, it's ok to pray for what you want. We have a tendency to pray "let your will be done" which is important, but remember God loves his children and wants to give them the desires of their hearts.
Father, teach me to pray boldly like this. I want so badly to pray not only in faith, but honestly believe that it will happen. You said that even faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains, Lord I want faith ten times that size. Father, when I pray I want the heavens to open and the earth to shake because Your mighty hand is moving. Yahweh, I ask you to step in on my behalf and reach those in my life effected by the past week. I ask for the healing of everyone involved. And I ask that over and above anything else, when we cry, we cry out to You and when we do, that you- the God of the universe would come close and be near to us.
"There is a God, who loves me
who wraps me in His arms
That is a place where I'm changed
and that's where I belong
Take me to that palce Lord
to that secret place
where I can be with you,
You can make me like you
Wrap me in your arms
Wrap me in your arms
Wrap me in your arms"
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